Awesome. I just found out this morning that the company I work for is shutting down all 98 stores. I get to drive an hour there and home tonight on my day off for a meeting to find out if my severance package is worth me sticking around until February, or if I should just tell them to go fuck themselves and start job hunting now.

I've had many jobs, but this was the first I loved. Enough to make it worth it for me to drive an hour there and back every day for a year and a half and sometimes up to 2.5 hours in the morning if the traffic is bad (it usually is), while spending $80-90 a week on gas.

Now I get to start over again.

Yippee...grumble grumble....wtf.

Today would have been my fathers 68th birthday...

*sigh*

Prayers and good wishes for my kitty Lily Bean, please...

She's been acting weird for a couple days and we are off to the doctor now...

I'm a bit worried.

Sadly I have discovered that the game "second life" is a bit more appealing that my real life right now....

Laugh all you want. :P

I'm so tired of being sick...

tonight. temp of 102. YAY!!

I am sooooooooo over it.

Ack!! I am soooo not ready for christmas this year. I was FINALLY wrapping some presents last night and realized I bombed at shopping this year. Half the stuff I bought I was looking at and wondering what the hell I was thinking. Wrapped them anyway, I don't have time to shop for people I already shopped for.

There are still people to shop for, although now its a short list, thank God. My apartment's a mess. I'm working tonight (have to leave for work in 4 hours, actually), and tomorrow so the only time I have is...well...RIGHT NOW.

I made a batch of shortbread this morning after I couldn't find my stupid cookie sheets last night.....well, I mixed it all up, spread it in the pan, almost ready to go, when I look down and .....wtf? a bug. a little weird baby termite looking thing. well, ain't that a kicker. shortbread into the trash, wash everything, start again. SONOFABITCH!!

Now, I guess I could have just dug the bastard out and baked it anyway, but I just couldn't. soooooooo....back to the drawing board. Now my bug-free shortbread is baking (smells damn good too) and I'm cleaning...can't you tell?

I just want some time to chill out! maybe I'll go make naked snow angels later. That'll cool me off for sure.

I wanted to wish a big ol' Happy Birthday to Danny Boy....even though he'd probably kick my ass for calling him Danny. *smmmmmmoooooooch*

Quick! someone remind me to never again make people more important than they make me!!

I imagined a million and one ways that I would celebrate my 30th birthday, and the way today is shaping up to be never even once entered my mind.

I just hope that my memory serves me better next year than it did this year when it comes time to celebrate with others.

that's all.

so, I usually only update when I'm complaining about SOMETHING....but things are going pretty well for me right now. I'm not 100% happy, but pretty darn content with my life overall. I think thats saying something. :)

Does anyone know how to get it out of the seat of a car?

Please help...

So my "new" job that I was so excited about ended up being something that makes life feel even worse. Drama drama drama, lies, bitches, unfulfilled promises, etc.

Today, one of my friends accepts a brand new job offer for great pay, exciting opportunity, etc.

AND my best friend gets offered a job that just blows my mind in terms of pay, title and responsibility. He's 20 years old, a great bullshitter which makes him great at interviews etc. He says to me he's not qualified, but I know he can do it, if he'll just DO IT and not screw around. (love you, if you're reading, pumpkin.) I'm happy for him and for the previously mentioned friend as well, but so sad for myself right now. I've worked so hard for so long and still feel left behind.

I don't WANT to show him the side that is sad, because now he tells me how bad he feels that I "deserve" it and he got it. (we weren't competing for the same job, btw) I don't want that. It makes me feel like he thinks I'm not genuinely happy for him, but I am. I dunno. I guess its too hard to pretend that everything is great right now, so I can tell him I'm happy for him, but I'm not showing it outwardly because I don't have the strength to.

How do I JUST be happy for them and put aside my own sense of failure and inferiority for another time?

I spent most of my night last night rubbing my pussy, which pleased me immensely.

( wanna see? )

so. I have made some serious changes in my life in the last month. I got a new job. YAY! I got a new car (new to me, but actually works without an entire bottle of anti freeze put in every three days) YAY! the new car was actually a big step too, since I was approved for financing all on my own. YAY! It's a ridiculous interest rate, but ok, two years ago I couldn't get approved for $3000 with a co-signer.

AND.....I MOVED!!

On Friday, June 1st, I moved into my very own apartment. I'm not a basement dweller anymore. YAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!

I'll post more later, but for now, I just wanted to give a quick update.

:)

sometimes MSN scares me. while this may not make sense to just about anyone reading this now...I will update tonight (hopefully) and then maybe it will. MSN....scary.

June 1, 2007
This is a great day for you, Jane, in which you may feel like you can exercise more of your freedom in the world. Break any shackles that seem to be holding you back. There is no reason for you to feel hindered. Your adventuresome attitude is brave, and there is a great deal of territory for you to conquer. Get focused and get moving. You have the green light to move ahead.

I have a job interview in the morning....If anyone has a free moment, please send some positive thoughts my way. :) thanks.

http://haleyos.livejournal.com/108923.html

She's got some sick puppies that need serious medical care.

February 24, 2007
'Go with the flow' is your anthem for today, Jane. You will find the freedom you seek by simply following the path of least resistance. There is no reason for you to not be happy. Life doesn't need to be difficult or complicated. The thing to remember is that you should be 100% yourself. People will act the way they need to react in relation to you. Don't worry about their feelings - they are not your responsibility.